Bhaktivinod Thakur has written this song “Ami Ati Pamara Durjana”. The Official Name for this song is Upalabdhi: “Anutapa-laksana-upalabdhi Song 1”. . This song is taken from the book Kalyana Kalpataru. Bhaktivinoda Thakura says that Human life comes after many births and deaths and we fools waste our life by continuously engaging in material gratification after our birth from our mothers womb. Later when we realize that death is nearing we remember Shri Krsna then our body becomes too week and feeble. Thus, Bhaktivinoda Thakura says that please worship the Hare Krishna mantra from the beginning and attain Krishna prema.
ami ati pamara durjana
ki korinu hay hay, prakrtir dasatay,
katainu amulya jibana
koto-dina garvbhavase, katainu anayase,
balya gelo bala-dharma-base
gramya-dharma e jaubana, miche dinu bisarjana,
brddha-kala elo abasese
bisaye nahiko sukha, bhoga-sakti subaimukha,
anta danta, sarira asakta
jibana jantranamoy, maranete sada bhoy,
bolo kise hoi anurakta
bhoga-bastu-bhoga-sakti, ta'te chilo anurakti,
je-paryanta chilo dehe bala
samasta bigata ho'lo, ki loiya thaki bolo,
ebe citta sadai cancala
samarthya thakite kay, hari na bhajinu hay,
asanna kalete kiba kori?
dhik mor e jibane, na sadhinu nitya-dhane,
mitra chadi' bhajilam ari
(1) Oh no! Just see my condition now! I must be the most sinful rogue of all! Alas, alas, what have I done, what have I done? The human for of life is very rare, but I have passed such a priceless life engaged simply as a slave in the service of the material energy!
(2) How much time have I spent being packed up in the womb of my mother? After being born, my childhood was spent simply playing around frivolously, according to the nature of children. Then my youth quickly passed by in executing many different obligations according to social customs. All those days having been wasted uselessly, I now suffer old age in the end as my only reward.
(3) I can no longer get any pleasure from sense gratification, for my power to enjoy has now become reversed. My teeth as well as my whole body have now become disabled and weak. Various aches and pains make my daily life unbearable, and I am haunted by continuously hovering fear of death. Due to all this, I don't feel as if there is any security or protection from any quarter. Therefore to what can I possibly remain attached to in this world?
(4) My enjoyment of this body was limited to material sense objects coupled with my drive to enjoy them. But now my attachment and inclination to all this has faded away. Everything in life having now passed me by, my heart is extremely worried about how to hold onto this emaciated old life.
(5) Alas! The real problem is that when I was young and fit, I have passed this life without ever worshiping the Supreme Lord Hari. Being bereft of the power to hold onto this body, what will I do now that the final moment is approaching? Oh, to hell with my entire life! I never took advantage of the actual eternal treasure. Instead, I have abandoned my real friend (Hari) only to worship my enemy, (this miserable material energy).