Toma Chadi Ami Kabhu

Bhaktivinod Thakur, Lord Krishna, Toma Chadi Ami Kabhu

Bhaktivinod Thakur
has written this song “Toma Chadi Ami Kabhu”. The official name of this song isYamuna Bhavavali Song 20.This song is taken from the book Gitamala. Bhaktivinoda Thakura says that we should pray to Sri Krsna for His causeless mercy. Once you take shelter of the son of nandmaharaj who is Lord Krishna then you are always protected from the clutches of birth and death as well as from committing further sins.
hari he
toma chadi' ami kabhu anatha na hoi prabhu
prabhu-hina dasa nirasroya
amake na nile satha kaiche tumi ha'be natha
domaniya ke tomara hoya
amadera e sambandha bidhi-krta su-nirbandha
sa-bidhi tomara guna-dhama
ata eba nibedana suno he madhu-mathana
chada-chadi nahe kona kama
e bhaktibinoda gaya rakho more taba paya
palo more na chado kakhana
jabe mama pao dosa koriya ucita rosa
danda diya deo sri-carana
(1) My dear Hari! I will never, ever abandon Your shelter, oh Lord, for if I were to do that, I would become utterly helpless without my Master. When a faithful servant becomes bereft of his Master, then he remains helplessly lost and confused, with no shelter from any quarter. However, if You do not accept me into Your association, then how will You be known as my Master, and who else besides me will be a suitable recipient of Your mercy?
(2) This is our eternal relationship which is unavoidably fixed up by our destiny, and which reflects Your abode of good qualities. Please hear my appeal to You now, oh Lord Who bestows nectar upon those that You punish! For there is no possibility whatsoever of separating us from our eternal relationship of being the Master (You) and the servant (me).
(3) Now Bhaktivinoda sings to You his appeal, dear Lord: Please keep me always under the shelter of Your lotus feet, always protect me, and never abandon me at any time. Whenever You find me deviating slightly from the shelter of Your feet, then I request You to please manifest suitable anger and punish me in a befitting way by mercifully kicking some sense into me with those same divine lotus feet.